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IN THE DISTANT CORNER... [entries|friends|calendar] fadedthengone They say they will always be there. They will always catch you when you fall and then they have the nerve to say.."Trust me" and of course you take their word for everything they say cause you do trust them...only to find out that they have betrayed you with lies..continually.Yea, what else are friends for?*I am Great* info add friends entries memories override [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[October 13th]   unspoken706  I Have Moved. COMMENT

hmm... [September 24th] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Im not okay*my chemical romance ]       *Edit* dont comment and you're deleted. :) READ (13) COMMENT

[September 4th] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | The ghost of you ] i dont think anyone else is going to ask me what i think about this hurricane madness....i actually think that if they are smart, they wont even bring it up in front of me. Some people had to lern the hard way not to bring it up or ask me cause, in the end of our little talk, they got their feelings hurt. but, they will be ok. they need to get out of theor closed minded shell anyway. And i am just waiting for one of those redneck idiots at my school to say something about it cause, i have been waiting for a chance to crush one of their egos for a real long time! but, other than that and, something else that i was thinking about while reggie was talking, church was good. Everyone was happy to see me and i was like "yay" cause i really miss going to fwc. Im going to their youth tonight too. I didnt go to the 11 o clock service cause that would be crowded and i went to the nin o clock one and yeah, there were kinda a lot of people. I think it wasnt a really good idea for me to go though cause now, i miss it even more. but, i guess i am supposed to be at abundant life and im going with "his" flow soo, i will just be missing my church forever. I am going swimming today. I havent been able to go in a while but, i can now and im going! i think i will do a 400 cause i have a lot of energy. Im going to have karisma time me so that i can see what i need to work on. I know my strokes are gonna be kinda rusty but, im all good. Now that i can swim, i wish my school had a swim team but just like tennis, they dont have one. Geez! stupid redneck school, all they have is baseball and softball. well, they have other stuff like...idk. i just want to mention softball and baseball cause, those are redneck sports. and yeah, im in a "i cant stand rednecks!" mood now so, pardon me. *No offense robyn* i think i need to go now. i have to hurry up and get this 400 done so i can wash my hair and then straighten it again or, i surely will not be going to church. lol. jk. adioz! READ (1) COMMENT

[September 3rd] [ music | my eyes burn*my chemical romance ] Watching you with her is like watching a child play with a loaded gun. Only difference is you’re not having fun. All I am left to do is be sorry…for what I know is going to happen. This is ruining me and it doesn’t even faze you. I have tried to convince myself that I’m overreacting but now, I’m sure that’s not true…those are my thoughts of that..kinda….idk w/e. Well, other than that, I’m “yay!”. I figure that, since i cant doing anything about my life being heck, why not try and make "heck" a better place. let me remind you that heck is heck not hell. hell will never be a better place....btw.lol. *Im in a really good mood so, if you want to ask me to do something, now is your chance….yep, u missed your opportunity. JK. I just found out Brittany has an lj. So, if you notice that I stop talking about her, you know why. Lol. Jk. Im going to go talk to all my peoples now. Adios! COMMENT

[September 2nd] I might be dj'n the bts dance on fri. lol. Ms. cullins had to be really desperate even though, i kinda screamed "i can do it" when brent said he couldnt cause he is going to night of joy. My church isnt kewl enough to go to night of joy lol. but, i bet they would go to rock the universe. them and their "rock based" worship team. sometimes they shock my...sometimes, i suspect the things they say, just not that i guess...idk. Im going to leave that alone though cause, this is a "happy" entry. joy....lol, i know a girl named joy. she is funny. buh bye. COMMENT

[September 1st] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | my eyes burn~ matchbook romance ] Im not going to the back to school dance, I don’t think I am going to the ropes course either. I d k. depends on if im over it or not which, I will most likely not be because that is just wrong and, It always will be. Just cause you think it is ok, and you can get over it doesn’t mean I have to. I think I will hold on to it in your place since you have mistakingly forgotten it happnedI think I have a test in kuhnert tomorrow. I don’t know. I know for a fact though that I have a vocab quiz in loranger. That is going to be easy cause, I actually studied cause, I was bored….really bored. COMMENT

[August 31st] [ mood | *pain* ] [ music | addicted`kelly clarkson ] My Gma said I couldn’t go to church tonight. I wanted to go because I don’t want to miss church since I am on leadership but, I think I should drop out of leadership because of what’s going on. I tried to drop out of it before but, for some reason that I don’t even know of, I ended up back in it. I love doing it and being involved and everything but, it’s not fair to other people who are able to be there every time the doors are open…idk. My head still kind of hurts and I still can’t find my glasses. I haven’t even looked for them because, I don’t care, and I wish I didn’t have to wear them. I also wish I was in perfect health, things happen and there has to be some odd retrospective reason as to why. Sometimes…no, all the time when I think about it all, I can’t help but just get mad at the world. I was especially thinking about it today when I had to eat three freaking granola bars! I hate this! But, there is a reason. O my goodness, there better be a reason reason. My head hurts so badly and you know what, there is nothing I can do about it. That sucks. But, there is a reason. Right? Right! My Gma told me she was sorry. That is the first time in my life she has ever apologized and I actually thought she meant it. It’s weird though cause, I know she meant it but, it meant nothing. I wonder why every time someone apologizes to me with *maybe* all their heart, I can’t feel it and, no matter how hard I try, I can’t forgive them. I do have an issue with forgiveness though that I need to get straightened out. I actually, have a lot but, I can’t even do it so, it was a waste of my time to even mention it. Now, I shall go talk to my peoples. Adios! READ (4) COMMENT

[August 31st] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | shake it off ~ MARIAH CAREY. ] i knew she would and then i knew you would. cause you always do. end of that. My head hurts to a diff degree today. and my gma told me it was my fault that some one in my family died of heart problems. she told me that this morning at the bus stop and i cried as a just stepped out the car and stood there trying to dwell upon the thought of if she was right or not. i dont understand why she does this to me. I almost let it get to me but, i had to "shake it off". and now, im just pink.* Adioz. COMMENT

[August 30th] [ mood | intimidated ] I felt like i was about to fall out in first today so, i ate a granola bar that was naturally sweetened with honey. It was hard and crunchy. I dont like crunchy granola bars but, i had to eat it so, i did. When i got home today, i checked my sugar and yeah, i really dont like that continually beeping noise but, things happen. nothing else is worth talking about that i  can think of now so, im gonna stop now. adioz! COMMENT

missing you. [August 28th] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | Addicted~ Kelly Clarkson ] It hurts to know you’re gone. And it’s worse to know it’s my fault. I miss you and I love you. I just want that one last chance to tell you that. I just want that one last chance to tell you about all the good times. About all the times that I really had fun even when I tried not to. I want to take back all the words I said as I remember every word you said. When you thought I wasn’t listening, I was. When you thought I didn’t care, I cared the most. I want you back here with me. Or maybe, I can just be there with you.                                                                                        I want us to be together. That’s all.                                                                               Today seems to be the hardest day of them all.                                                                                                        ~why?~     COMMENT

[August 26th] well, not only can i laugh at roni's mishap yesterday, but kayla bout busted her butt*LOL* and markeesha*lol* now knows that crack kills.ha. lol. i was laughing so hard, my "abs" started hurting. i needed that too. i was like yesss! well, i was going to sing at the vb game today but, i have to go to the freaking doctor cause i have to get a check up to see if im doing better from tues. i cant stand the doctor! i hate having to go! but, i will get over it. adioz! COMMENT

[August 25th] Today, I was very irritable. I was in so much pain it was stupid. I think I was about to throw the freking table at Brandon in chemistry but, instead of doing that, I simply said some words that I shouldn’t have. Im not singing for a week. I cant run for a month but, I will anyway. I don’t care if it kills me cause, I haven’t been running so, I have been doing something else. I have to wash my long sleeve shirt today. That way I can wear it tomorrow. I have math homework. Yay me. Im really missing my mom right now, I just want some one to talk to I guess. I don’t know. I need to get right but, idk. Good bye. *roni dove across the floor...it was funny. ha.* COMMENT

[August 24th] thought i was ok, but im not. READ (1) COMMENT

[August 23rd] i was typing a very long entry a while ago in the midst of my homework and talking to people when my computer decided to go to sleep. its all aol's fault. that is all i am going to say now. buh bye. COMMENT

[August 22nd] [ mood | lost ] well, i have officially qualified for the insanity plea. i just called ashlee's house and asked for kenna. phew!im a slow one. but, lucky me, im quick on words so, i was like jk jk. lol. im so slow. ,my brain is dead. i dont even know how to use it anymore. omg. i cant believe this. i think i am mad. im not sure. but, that was kinda funny i have to admit. she was like, this is ashlee...i think. i dont even remember. dangit. i cant stand this. o my goodness. this is stupid. i think all my days of calling people slow are starting to haunt me....idk. i just decided to share that in here cause, i feel dumb and i cant stop laughing but, thats a diff story actually. im just happy that didnt happy to me in the case of two guys cause, that woul have been bad!. well, thats all for now. gots to go to monday meeting. adioz! COMMENT

[August 19th] lol. my camera is nice and small..i like it for that. who cares if the pics are crappy.lol. i will take more pics on monday. COMMENT

[August 19th] [ mood | creative ] [ music | u no what they do2guys like us n prison~my chemical romance ] well, i made another journal but, i dont like that one so , i will just keep this one. i am so bored. im basically not talking to anyone at all anymore so, now i have nothing to do. bryan left for texas university and now well, i dont know. i reviewed a whole bunch of alg 2 the other day. i took a book home i looked through the whole thing and answered a problems from each section in one night. i am proud. im happy mr. ross had that book too cause, i couldnt handle mrs. orr's pictures anymore. all she does is draw pics to explain everything. I cant learn like that! she doesnt have very good reasoning skills either. i need a reason behind everything i do and, she cant give that to me. so, i shall from now on educate myself.lol. try that! her test today was easy on the parts that i actually studied. the other parts, i srtuggled with. well, i think i am going to change my background now. adioz! COMMENT

[August 18th] my new name is off_your_list it looks crappy and plain cause i havent fixed it up yet but, i will try and get to that tonight. right now, i have to go to work! COMMENT

[August 18th] im getting a new name. again. im not sure what i want it to be though cause, i really like this one. maybe i will make it ...idk. COMMENT

[August 17th] ok, i got a camera and, i cant get the pics to come out right. i think it is on sepia cause all of them look brown..idk. it isnt all that good but, i wanted a diff one but it was sold out so, i got this one. it is small and i like that fact. i was so tired today i was sleep like all day. this morning on the bus i went to sleep and then in the afternoon, i went to sleep and then, when i got home, i went to sleep and then, i woke up at like 6:00 and found out my tavezia was in critical condition at the hospital. then , i went to church and i was late and i forgot my glasses and my gma yelled at me and i was about ready to punch her in the face. and then she went home and got m glasses and told me to wear them and i only wore them for like two secs after she pulled off and i took them off. then i had to put them back on cause i sat in the back and i couldnt see the projection. then my head started hurting. i didnt sing today cause i was late and josh was like, did you want to? and i didnt know how to answer that so i just told him i would talk to him later. i wonder why i always do that. everytime i dont know what to say, i always say i will talk to you later but, i never do. i think i did that to a few people today. i know i did it to brittany and she remembers it too. well, thats all good bye COMMENT

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